I think my negative thinking was just a one day thing. I am a lot better today which s nice. I hung out with Greg all day. Him and I always have a good time and we don't get on each others nerves which is awesome.
Tomorrow I am going to UCF to try and get back in, or at least submit the paper work since I can't do it online they say. I hope they say I get in. That'll relieve a lot off my back. Otherwise I gotta go see a few counselors about what will transfer over and what classes I should take at BCC in the Fall semester to keep going to school and continue my degree even though I'm not in UCF yet.
I figured out my car situation. I've got 3 cars right now. The bus, parts jetta, and my old daily driver. I'm going to take all the turbo stuff out and get the old daily driver back to NA form with a brand new rebuilt engine with AC and all that jazz. Put in the cams, l/w lifters, l/w flywheel, chip, intake, exhaust and then call it a day. Since I have all that stuff and can't use it any ways on the other car. I should have everything to put it together except the transmission which will cost me about 300 bucks or so. Then some other small parts and for about 1k I can probably have that thing running around again NA style. As far as looks after that, swap over the GLX stuff, and I might rat ride it out and rust the sides and repaint the center. Who knows. Then the parts car will become the insane Jetta and the bus will get taken apart to see what happened to it on the BABE Rally.
I should have enough money for now to get by. I have money coming in from my BABE Rally guys, money that a friend owes me, and my paycheck. I should be good for this month to get my car going and pay off stuff. Then I gotta take a break for a while.
Girls girls girls! I wish it was a easy fix for this as it sounds for the car and schooling situation. My youngin 17 year old that I wanted to have some fun with and maybe date turned 18. That's just a good thing mentally. She was already still legal and she's kind of cool but as I talk to her more I find that she's very closed off about her feelings and doesn't talk much about herself. She has a hard time opening up which I don't like. I found a old friend from Elementary or Jr. High on Facebook and I don't know why I never really talked to her back in the day but now I am trying to. I always thought she was kind of cute back in the day and now she's more cute and seems to have the same interests. I dunno yet, I'm going to meet up with her in a few days here hopefully. See how she is now a days. If anything I have another local friend to hang out with.
I just started using Pandora for my music. Kind of. I am still in Orlando from my BABE Alternate journey and using my friend Greg's laptop and have Pandora open on it all the time. So far I'm loving it because of the new music all the time and it's just so pimp. I've also started using twitter.
I think my website is going to be transformed so that my blog is the main page. Having it as an alternate page doesn't work to well. I dunno yet.
Monday, May 26, 2008
No Posting!!!!
I haven't posted on here in like two months or something. I dunno, maybe it's been longer. Any ways. I just got back from my alternate BABE Rally trip. The BABE Rally fell through and you can check that out at our BABE Rally blog at http://ricketyvan.com.
For some reason I am getting depressed now. I think it's everything that is just hitting me in the face right now and that I am starting to get behind on things, mainly my life. No running car, don't have a stable job, don't know if I can get into UCF, in debt, and no girlfriend. I was just on a up but now it seems to have doubled around and kicked me in the face. Maybe it's just a tonight thing but I don't think it's going to be. :(
For some reason I am getting depressed now. I think it's everything that is just hitting me in the face right now and that I am starting to get behind on things, mainly my life. No running car, don't have a stable job, don't know if I can get into UCF, in debt, and no girlfriend. I was just on a up but now it seems to have doubled around and kicked me in the face. Maybe it's just a tonight thing but I don't think it's going to be. :(
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Depressed
I've been pretty depressed lately. It's a combination of a lot of things I think. Between the cars not working, lack of money, feeling of segregation from the VW group I hang out with, lack of a girlfriend for two to three years, and work throwing me around like a frequently used cunt rag it's starting to take a drain on me.
Hopefully in the next few weeks my cars will be up and running. It's going to take more money which will hurt that situation but at least I'll have my car or cars going. I don't really know what's up with the group. I just feel like they have been turning on me. I've been feeling like this for a while. Maybe it's all in my head, maybe it's not. I'm not really sure but it sure does annoy me and it makes me sad. :(
The lack of a girlfriend thing is just a nat that picks at me every time I go out with people since most everybody else has some sort of significant other. It makes me want to jump out of my bus's rear door as it maxes out doing 75mph on the highway. Maybe a semi passing me will run me over.
The work thing is starting to get more and more annoying. They scheduled me for the next three weeks with working two days and getting like ten hours. I've been getting around 20 to 30 hours a week so.... why did they do this? Because Caleb is the way to nice guy that picks up everybody's shift when they can't do theirs and does all the stuff that people don't want to do. So.... instead of giving me a schedule so that I can plan crap, they give me crap hours and hope that I'll just wait around for them. That's what you get for being to nice. You get shit on. Like usual. Wouldn't be the first time.
I've been playing WoW a lot more lately. Maybe it's to take my mind off of my depression. I've also been watching House a lot. So far up to season four. I need to check if I'll be caught up or not.
I've got a Calculus Two test this Thursday that I haven't studied much for and for some reason I couldn't get to sleep tonight and I have work at 9am. Today is going to be really sucky and it's going to put me more behind because of my lack of discipline. I could blame it on the depression lately but what's the fun in that. Excuses are lame. I'm just lazy I guess.
Hopefully in the next few weeks my cars will be up and running. It's going to take more money which will hurt that situation but at least I'll have my car or cars going. I don't really know what's up with the group. I just feel like they have been turning on me. I've been feeling like this for a while. Maybe it's all in my head, maybe it's not. I'm not really sure but it sure does annoy me and it makes me sad. :(
The lack of a girlfriend thing is just a nat that picks at me every time I go out with people since most everybody else has some sort of significant other. It makes me want to jump out of my bus's rear door as it maxes out doing 75mph on the highway. Maybe a semi passing me will run me over.
The work thing is starting to get more and more annoying. They scheduled me for the next three weeks with working two days and getting like ten hours. I've been getting around 20 to 30 hours a week so.... why did they do this? Because Caleb is the way to nice guy that picks up everybody's shift when they can't do theirs and does all the stuff that people don't want to do. So.... instead of giving me a schedule so that I can plan crap, they give me crap hours and hope that I'll just wait around for them. That's what you get for being to nice. You get shit on. Like usual. Wouldn't be the first time.
I've been playing WoW a lot more lately. Maybe it's to take my mind off of my depression. I've also been watching House a lot. So far up to season four. I need to check if I'll be caught up or not.
I've got a Calculus Two test this Thursday that I haven't studied much for and for some reason I couldn't get to sleep tonight and I have work at 9am. Today is going to be really sucky and it's going to put me more behind because of my lack of discipline. I could blame it on the depression lately but what's the fun in that. Excuses are lame. I'm just lazy I guess.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
House!
I've been watching a lot of house recently. Trying to finally get through those episodes that my brother gave me. He gave me all of the seasons. :) Love my brother.
So I'm kind of crazy and decided I wanted to do a VR6 swap into my bus. It'd cost just about as much as rebuilding the current engine because so that's the main thing. It'd be cheaper for the end result for what I want to do with the bus in the end. So it's awesome.
Work cut some of my hours. Well... they have been for the past two weeks so far. It's been giving me time to do other things, but I've been really lazy and haven't really done crap. :( I need to get off my ass and start making T-Shirt designs, making my dad's website for his band, and fixing my bus/car.
So I'm kind of crazy and decided I wanted to do a VR6 swap into my bus. It'd cost just about as much as rebuilding the current engine because so that's the main thing. It'd be cheaper for the end result for what I want to do with the bus in the end. So it's awesome.
Work cut some of my hours. Well... they have been for the past two weeks so far. It's been giving me time to do other things, but I've been really lazy and haven't really done crap. :( I need to get off my ass and start making T-Shirt designs, making my dad's website for his band, and fixing my bus/car.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
It's Raining!
Not only outside but all over the place. My bus decided to take a crap on me yesterday. The steering wheel is now locking up every once in a while because I can't get the key into the stock ignition lock thing. So... after locking on me twice yesterday I am going to drill it out today, once it stops raining and I can get my electric drill into the car.
Thursday, February 7, 2008
TIRED!
I've been on and off sleep for the past few days. Sleeping in the most odd times of the day. For instance I am going to be going to sleep right after I type this up and it's about a quarter past seven right now. :( Seven AM that is. I just installed a 120gig SATA harddrive I found laying around my house so now I have the 160 and a 120 in my machine. WEWT.
I got a new phone! Woohoo!!!! It's the LG enV. It's totally awesome and has a full keyboard. I told dad that I'd pay the extra 30 bucks a month for unlimited texts. So now I text ALL THE TIME. It's awesome.
So I've been talking to Alan's girlfriend a lot. Quick back story. I met her after Alan had met her but I met her on my own and she was in some weird bad relationship at the moment and I tried to get her to go out with me but she had that going on so it was a no go. She broke up with that guy and then went out with Alan. Well... Alan is a really lazy guy. So lazy that if he knew I talked about him on here or if I spurted out life changing, revolutionary things on here he would be so lazy that he wouldn't want to waste the energy to log on to this website and read about it. So........... his girlfriend has been talking to me complaining to me about him and his ways. His Alanness. I saw this with him because he treated me the same way in a friendship sense and now he has a girlfriend and is totally neglecting her. She talks to me because I have more of a girl side and see eye to eye with her. I see more so on the girl side of relationships than I do the guy side. I don't know why but whatever. So we talk a lot and I know they are going to break up, it's just a matter of when.
I want them to break up and then again I don't. There's the side of me that says. If they break up then Arielle could be happier and find a guy that would treat her better... possibly me. That'd be awesome. Any ways. There's also the side that says, if they break up Alan will see what he had and has now lost and maybe he will change the way he thinks of life. More than likely not sinece he's stuck on his point of view but it's a hopeful outcome. There's also the total opposite side that doesn't want to see them break up just because they will both be hurt and what not. I think they'd make great friends, but not good lovers. It kind of seems like Alan treats Arielle like a friends with benefits sort of thing. He never takes her out, never does anything for her. She comes over and cleans his room, puts away his laundry, helps him with homework and what not. She will be cleaning his room and he will sit there and not help. It's ridiculous.
I have my first Calculus 2 test today. Hoepfully it'll go well. I've been studying a decent amount for it so we will see how it goes. I gotta get to bed though, Peace out.
P.S. The bus is now my daily driver and is up and running, the Jetta is still blown.
I got a new phone! Woohoo!!!! It's the LG enV. It's totally awesome and has a full keyboard. I told dad that I'd pay the extra 30 bucks a month for unlimited texts. So now I text ALL THE TIME. It's awesome.
So I've been talking to Alan's girlfriend a lot. Quick back story. I met her after Alan had met her but I met her on my own and she was in some weird bad relationship at the moment and I tried to get her to go out with me but she had that going on so it was a no go. She broke up with that guy and then went out with Alan. Well... Alan is a really lazy guy. So lazy that if he knew I talked about him on here or if I spurted out life changing, revolutionary things on here he would be so lazy that he wouldn't want to waste the energy to log on to this website and read about it. So........... his girlfriend has been talking to me complaining to me about him and his ways. His Alanness. I saw this with him because he treated me the same way in a friendship sense and now he has a girlfriend and is totally neglecting her. She talks to me because I have more of a girl side and see eye to eye with her. I see more so on the girl side of relationships than I do the guy side. I don't know why but whatever. So we talk a lot and I know they are going to break up, it's just a matter of when.
I want them to break up and then again I don't. There's the side of me that says. If they break up then Arielle could be happier and find a guy that would treat her better... possibly me. That'd be awesome. Any ways. There's also the side that says, if they break up Alan will see what he had and has now lost and maybe he will change the way he thinks of life. More than likely not sinece he's stuck on his point of view but it's a hopeful outcome. There's also the total opposite side that doesn't want to see them break up just because they will both be hurt and what not. I think they'd make great friends, but not good lovers. It kind of seems like Alan treats Arielle like a friends with benefits sort of thing. He never takes her out, never does anything for her. She comes over and cleans his room, puts away his laundry, helps him with homework and what not. She will be cleaning his room and he will sit there and not help. It's ridiculous.
I have my first Calculus 2 test today. Hoepfully it'll go well. I've been studying a decent amount for it so we will see how it goes. I gotta get to bed though, Peace out.
P.S. The bus is now my daily driver and is up and running, the Jetta is still blown.
Monday, January 28, 2008
It's Late
I'm the best procrastinator ever! Not really but tonight is pretty bad. I ended up playing WoW for way to long because one of my online friends asked me to play some arena. I knew I shouldn't have.
Tonight I can hopefully get some of dad's website work done for his band's website. I also need to get some homework done. At least like 15-20 problems or something.
Car problems though haven't been solved yet. I ordered the starter for the bus and it should be coming in soon. I've been able to use my dad's 4Runner for the time being thank god. I'm hoping the starter comes in by Tuesday or Wednesday so that I have a car to drive to work. I'm not sure how hard it is to put into there but we shall see. It looks like it is pretty easy to do.
Tonight I can hopefully get some of dad's website work done for his band's website. I also need to get some homework done. At least like 15-20 problems or something.
Car problems though haven't been solved yet. I ordered the starter for the bus and it should be coming in soon. I've been able to use my dad's 4Runner for the time being thank god. I'm hoping the starter comes in by Tuesday or Wednesday so that I have a car to drive to work. I'm not sure how hard it is to put into there but we shall see. It looks like it is pretty easy to do.
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