Corny title FTW. One of those chicks I messaged from Craigslist replied to me today. She looks kind of cute but seems a little bit older. She didn't list her age in her post and from the picture I'd say she was late 20s to early 30s. I don't mind. She seems pretty cool so far.
That 17 year old that I cuddled with a few days ago appears to not be talking to me. Usually she calls me every other day or something but I've called her and she hasn't called me back or anything. Very odd for her. I guess it's for the better.
So that's newness for me. I have a pretty long list of things I have to fix on my car. I shall go over them some other time.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
Lonely
Another Christmas goes by as I sit alone, single, and deprived of a companion to share my warmth with. It has gotten some what bad. There's this 17 year old chick that I cuddled with the other day. Six years apart is a huge gap. It's not illegal to do anything with her in Florida which is good but morally it's kicking me in the ass. I don't know if I should be doing it or not. I don't even really want to do it with her, I just want somebody to cuddle with and what not. Unfortunately the two things usually come as a pair, especially for younger audiences. I am starting my third year now that I am single since the whole Mary thing. I thank what ever god is up there that I am over that now.
I just sent out some emails to various ladies on the internet via Craigslist. I don't know if that was a good or bad thing to do but ya know what.... it can't hurt at all. I also put a ad up on there. This would be the 2nd ad I put up. The first one was really long and gave a big description of me but this one is short and sweet. The last one received zero responses. Not cool at all. Hopefully something comes out of that.
I just re-insured my Bus so I think I am going to get a muffler for it soon and start driving that thing around as my daily driver. It's not the best thing to drive around but it's starting to look better than my Jetta. The Jetta has a lot of work that has to be done on it right now. A decent amount of upgrades, clean ups, and fixes that I am going to try and work out before I head off to work again on the 3rd/6th of January. I don't think I am going to get it all done but hopefully most of it will be done, at least the big things.
I am in debt.... both with some credit card debt and with my dad still. I messed up big time here but I have a plan to fix it all. Another one of Caleb's genius plans. Hopefully it will work out. It's actually a revision to my previous plan to make T-Shirts. My problem before was actually making the shirts. It took a hell of a lot of time to make just one shirt and the process wasn't the best way to mass produce shirts. I looked up online how much simple silk screening was for 1-3 color shirts and it's about the same price as I was getting for making them myself. Also they are silk screened so the quality is better. Wewt. I am going to set off for a batch of 60-70 shirts and then sell those. My first design should sell decently and I should make money fairly quickly with the first batch. Once those are sold to the point where I have made my money back from the initial investment I am going to purchase another 60 except of a different design. Right now I have about four finished designs. Unfortunately I don't think all of them are going to sell very well. I am going to start making some more funny designs soon and hopefully they will be done and ready for the second and third batch of shirts. That's the plan at least. This should provide a decent amount of income, not take up to much time, and be fairly fun to do, not to mention free shirts for me.
Right now I'm up in Mass. for Christmas break. Even though this is supposed to be a fun time and I am supposed to be happy that I am with family I'm not really all that happy. All of my cousins, ages 23, 21, and 15, all have significant others right now. That is beating me in the face every day as I listen to my Aunt's dogs snore when they sleep. My brother keeps playing games a lot and it seems like he is controlling of the game system. I don't mind to much as it is just games and what not and I understand that that is him. It just gets annoying every once in a while.
Right now I just feel depressed. I don't really know what I am doing with my life. I got my AA this semester... but it still feels like I am going no where. I think the big thing is the fact that I don't have a girlfriend. My car is fast and fun, my schooling is going decent, my job is great, but I just feel empty. I come home, do the same crap every day, and nothing really changes. The highlight of the past month or two I would say could be said with two events. I talked to some chick on the mono rail at the airport near Thanksgiving and she seemed interested in me and I got to cuddle with a 17 year old a few days ago. Those would be my highlights. I don't think that my car hitting a certain speed as a highlight or that I got my AA. I guess it's just a happiness thing and it is very depressing right now to see so many people together and yet I have such a hard time.
Enough of my rambling. I should be getting to bed. See ya.
I just sent out some emails to various ladies on the internet via Craigslist. I don't know if that was a good or bad thing to do but ya know what.... it can't hurt at all. I also put a ad up on there. This would be the 2nd ad I put up. The first one was really long and gave a big description of me but this one is short and sweet. The last one received zero responses. Not cool at all. Hopefully something comes out of that.
I just re-insured my Bus so I think I am going to get a muffler for it soon and start driving that thing around as my daily driver. It's not the best thing to drive around but it's starting to look better than my Jetta. The Jetta has a lot of work that has to be done on it right now. A decent amount of upgrades, clean ups, and fixes that I am going to try and work out before I head off to work again on the 3rd/6th of January. I don't think I am going to get it all done but hopefully most of it will be done, at least the big things.
I am in debt.... both with some credit card debt and with my dad still. I messed up big time here but I have a plan to fix it all. Another one of Caleb's genius plans. Hopefully it will work out. It's actually a revision to my previous plan to make T-Shirts. My problem before was actually making the shirts. It took a hell of a lot of time to make just one shirt and the process wasn't the best way to mass produce shirts. I looked up online how much simple silk screening was for 1-3 color shirts and it's about the same price as I was getting for making them myself. Also they are silk screened so the quality is better. Wewt. I am going to set off for a batch of 60-70 shirts and then sell those. My first design should sell decently and I should make money fairly quickly with the first batch. Once those are sold to the point where I have made my money back from the initial investment I am going to purchase another 60 except of a different design. Right now I have about four finished designs. Unfortunately I don't think all of them are going to sell very well. I am going to start making some more funny designs soon and hopefully they will be done and ready for the second and third batch of shirts. That's the plan at least. This should provide a decent amount of income, not take up to much time, and be fairly fun to do, not to mention free shirts for me.
Right now I'm up in Mass. for Christmas break. Even though this is supposed to be a fun time and I am supposed to be happy that I am with family I'm not really all that happy. All of my cousins, ages 23, 21, and 15, all have significant others right now. That is beating me in the face every day as I listen to my Aunt's dogs snore when they sleep. My brother keeps playing games a lot and it seems like he is controlling of the game system. I don't mind to much as it is just games and what not and I understand that that is him. It just gets annoying every once in a while.
Right now I just feel depressed. I don't really know what I am doing with my life. I got my AA this semester... but it still feels like I am going no where. I think the big thing is the fact that I don't have a girlfriend. My car is fast and fun, my schooling is going decent, my job is great, but I just feel empty. I come home, do the same crap every day, and nothing really changes. The highlight of the past month or two I would say could be said with two events. I talked to some chick on the mono rail at the airport near Thanksgiving and she seemed interested in me and I got to cuddle with a 17 year old a few days ago. Those would be my highlights. I don't think that my car hitting a certain speed as a highlight or that I got my AA. I guess it's just a happiness thing and it is very depressing right now to see so many people together and yet I have such a hard time.
Enough of my rambling. I should be getting to bed. See ya.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Parties and Shows
Right now I'm idling in my room waiting for my waste gate dump pipe to cool down so that I can mess with it and finish it up. I hoping I can get my car done in the next 2-3 hours so that I can make it to the party in time and have all my makeup done and what not. The Halloween party that is tonight is the one that I have spent all my money on for the oh so awesome costume that I made up. I'm hoping that people will like it and not say much about me cross dressing. We shall see what happens.
The final part, the dress, came in yesterday. Boy was it late. I was getting really worried that it wasn't going to come in in time but it came in yesterday and I immediately tried it on. It's a little shorter than I thought it was going to be but no biggy. I am just going to wear some knee high boots that I have. Hopefully it looks alright.
This weekend is going to be insane. Along with rushing to get my car working right I have to get it done for a car show that I am going to this weekend. We are leaving on Sunday at 6:30am. I don't know why so early but that's when they want to leave. I also have a party tonight which is going to involve drinking of course so we shall see how it all goes.
I still have to get a lot of things done to my car too. Finish the waste gate dump, fix the windshield wipers, re-do my 3" exhaust dump so that it works properly, and finish off the methanol injection. There are a lot of other little things that I'm doing too but those are the majority of the big things. I also did a little bit of re-wiring which is still going on and that'll take another good 30 minutes of work at least. All these small things and I still have to tune the methanol injection. :( Doh.
The final part, the dress, came in yesterday. Boy was it late. I was getting really worried that it wasn't going to come in in time but it came in yesterday and I immediately tried it on. It's a little shorter than I thought it was going to be but no biggy. I am just going to wear some knee high boots that I have. Hopefully it looks alright.
This weekend is going to be insane. Along with rushing to get my car working right I have to get it done for a car show that I am going to this weekend. We are leaving on Sunday at 6:30am. I don't know why so early but that's when they want to leave. I also have a party tonight which is going to involve drinking of course so we shall see how it all goes.
I still have to get a lot of things done to my car too. Finish the waste gate dump, fix the windshield wipers, re-do my 3" exhaust dump so that it works properly, and finish off the methanol injection. There are a lot of other little things that I'm doing too but those are the majority of the big things. I also did a little bit of re-wiring which is still going on and that'll take another good 30 minutes of work at least. All these small things and I still have to tune the methanol injection. :( Doh.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Dad's Gone For The Week
Just dropped off my dad at the airport this monring. Today has been a really weird day. I woke up yesterday at 4pm from my young friend (The 17 year old chick) calling me saying that she wanted to hang out. I skipped class :( and went to hang out with her. I had fun and got a few errands done at the same time that I had to get done.
I stayed up all night and then took my dad to the airport. Upon arriving back at the house I decided to try some at home waxing stuff that I had bought..... NEVER AGAIN. That stuff hurts so much and I'm never gunna do at home stuff again. It hurts more than somebody else doing it that knows what they are doing. So.... in the next day or two i'm going to go get the rest of my body done that I wanted to get done.
A few days ago I started doing some good welding. I made up a pretty sick 4" intake pipe. I'm hoping I can make these and start selling them for about 100-150 bucks per pipe. That's how much other places are charging for them. I hope to start making other new pipes and manifolds and stuff soon to sell and hopefully make a decent amount of money.
Speaking of money. My friend Brian owes me 700 bucks. So far he's made his first payment today of 75 bucks. He made it on his credit card through paypal because I have a deduction on there. :( Totally not cool. I'm going to have to talk to him about that.
HALLOWEEN!!! This next week I go to Halloween Horror Nights at Universal Studios for free! My work is taking about 16 of the students and I am their semi-guardian. Their eye that watches over them. I dunno if I'm going to dress up any for it. It might be fun to dress up a little. :) As for other plans for halloween. So far the ear rings, contacts, fangs, and wig have came in. I'm still awaiting the corset and the dress. Hopefully the corset will come in soon so I can play with it a little bit before the Halloween parties. I made the custom fang molds and they fit great. I haven't tried the contacts yet but I'm going to soon. It's a little bit scary since I've never used contacts or ever had anything in my eye. Hopefully it goes well. I still need to get some stockings and some nail polish along with the rest of the waxing.
I'm down to 193lbs right now and hopefully by Halloween I can get down to 185 at least. That'd be really nice. Who knows.
My boss, a psycologist, gave me a number to another psycologist to talk about my crossdress/gender questions that I may have. I don't know if I'm more of a transgender or just a crossdresser. It's a big question to ask but I will find out soon.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Bloggy Da Blog Blog
Well. Let's get some catch going. I haven't posted in my other blog for a couple of months and a lot has happened since then.
I have since quit working at Office Depot and I found a job working with autistic young adults. People around the ages of 18-25 mainly. I actually deal with people who have a more defined form of autism called aspergers. It's a social disorder. I've gotten a lot of awesome stories from it. :) The work place is awesome. I couldn't ask for a better job right now. My co-workers praise me because I know tons of different skills. It's awesome. It's busy on the week days but during the weekends it's pretty relaxing. I take them on their weekend trips to the mall, parks, bowling, etc etc. I love it. During the week I help them cook and clean and do their daily activities.
I met a chick I like and she likes me. There are some pretty hairy complications though. Well... some complications and some just situational things. She's pretty cool. She likes photography, is cool to hang out with, likes going out driving and generally is pretty chill about doing anything, like me. We hit things off pretty well. I met her at work and we started hanging out a lot. Here's where the problems start to occur. She's in high school still and is 17. Schedules don't mix up and i'm six years older than her. It makes it kind of weird and it her lack of life experiences shows. She also has a boyfriend already. Whups. I didn't make any moves on her because of this but one day we did kiss when I was leaving her place. Since then she has decided it was a mistake which is good. It shows she has morals. Her youth also shows a lot because she says that she wishes she wasn't with her boyfriend but won't break up with him because she "loves" him but doesn't want to "love" him. Maybe it's a girl thing, maybe it's a younger person thing. I dunno. What ever it is it is annoying. So that's that on the girl situation. I work with a few cute chicks but they are all taken also and I don't think they are into me, also seeing how they are a lot older than I.
I started playing WoW again. Just in my spare time. I don't raid any more and I don't think I ever will again. It takes way to much effort and time out of my life. I've been hanging out with a lot of my new Volkswagen buddies and working on my car more. It's now super fast and has a turbo on it. :p I shouldn't have bought it but I did. :( I've also borrowed a friends welder and have started to mess with it. I find it really fun welding. It's been a blast so far and I'm going to start to make things and sell them to hopefully make some money, buy my own welder, and sell that stuff so that I can pay off the debt I owe.
I'm working about 25-35 hours a week right now and I'm taking 3 classes at BCC. I finish my AA degree this semester which is awesome. I'll start to take UCF classes soon then. My classes have been going pretty well so far. I'm pretty sure I have all A's or B's in my classes.
I can't wait for Halloween to come. I've decided to go all out on a awesome costume this year. I've never done that before. I'm cross dressing of course. It's the only time of the year I can get away with it without getting asked a ton of questions. I've actually been dieting so that I can fit into the costume. That's kind of sad but I did need to diet any ways. I'm down to about 193lb from 205 less than a 3 weeks ago. I'm hoping I can get down to about 180 by Halloween. If I can I'll probably be able to pull off some nice curves in the dress I'm wearing and my face won't be to fat looking. I decided to go as a Victorian/renaissance vampire chick. :) I got contacts, fangs, a awesome dress, corset, and a few other things to make it look awesome. At least I hope it looks awesome.
I've been starting to think I'm more of a trans gender person than just a cross dresser. I'm totally unsure of it as of now though. I am asking the psychologists at my work place if they recommend any people to talk to about it. Therapists and stuff.
That should just about do it for catching up. I might try and post the last five of my posts from my other blog into here soon.
I have since quit working at Office Depot and I found a job working with autistic young adults. People around the ages of 18-25 mainly. I actually deal with people who have a more defined form of autism called aspergers. It's a social disorder. I've gotten a lot of awesome stories from it. :) The work place is awesome. I couldn't ask for a better job right now. My co-workers praise me because I know tons of different skills. It's awesome. It's busy on the week days but during the weekends it's pretty relaxing. I take them on their weekend trips to the mall, parks, bowling, etc etc. I love it. During the week I help them cook and clean and do their daily activities.
I met a chick I like and she likes me. There are some pretty hairy complications though. Well... some complications and some just situational things. She's pretty cool. She likes photography, is cool to hang out with, likes going out driving and generally is pretty chill about doing anything, like me. We hit things off pretty well. I met her at work and we started hanging out a lot. Here's where the problems start to occur. She's in high school still and is 17. Schedules don't mix up and i'm six years older than her. It makes it kind of weird and it her lack of life experiences shows. She also has a boyfriend already. Whups. I didn't make any moves on her because of this but one day we did kiss when I was leaving her place. Since then she has decided it was a mistake which is good. It shows she has morals. Her youth also shows a lot because she says that she wishes she wasn't with her boyfriend but won't break up with him because she "loves" him but doesn't want to "love" him. Maybe it's a girl thing, maybe it's a younger person thing. I dunno. What ever it is it is annoying. So that's that on the girl situation. I work with a few cute chicks but they are all taken also and I don't think they are into me, also seeing how they are a lot older than I.
I started playing WoW again. Just in my spare time. I don't raid any more and I don't think I ever will again. It takes way to much effort and time out of my life. I've been hanging out with a lot of my new Volkswagen buddies and working on my car more. It's now super fast and has a turbo on it. :p I shouldn't have bought it but I did. :( I've also borrowed a friends welder and have started to mess with it. I find it really fun welding. It's been a blast so far and I'm going to start to make things and sell them to hopefully make some money, buy my own welder, and sell that stuff so that I can pay off the debt I owe.
I'm working about 25-35 hours a week right now and I'm taking 3 classes at BCC. I finish my AA degree this semester which is awesome. I'll start to take UCF classes soon then. My classes have been going pretty well so far. I'm pretty sure I have all A's or B's in my classes.
I can't wait for Halloween to come. I've decided to go all out on a awesome costume this year. I've never done that before. I'm cross dressing of course. It's the only time of the year I can get away with it without getting asked a ton of questions. I've actually been dieting so that I can fit into the costume. That's kind of sad but I did need to diet any ways. I'm down to about 193lb from 205 less than a 3 weeks ago. I'm hoping I can get down to about 180 by Halloween. If I can I'll probably be able to pull off some nice curves in the dress I'm wearing and my face won't be to fat looking. I decided to go as a Victorian/renaissance vampire chick. :) I got contacts, fangs, a awesome dress, corset, and a few other things to make it look awesome. At least I hope it looks awesome.
I've been starting to think I'm more of a trans gender person than just a cross dresser. I'm totally unsure of it as of now though. I am asking the psychologists at my work place if they recommend any people to talk to about it. Therapists and stuff.
That should just about do it for catching up. I might try and post the last five of my posts from my other blog into here soon.
Thursday, October 4, 2007
Halloween Preperations
Well. I decided to start using Blogger instead of my old one that I had on my server. I'm going to see if I can import all of the old posts. I stopped using it because of all the spam in the comments I was getting. It got old real quick. Any ways. A quick post here....
I've started my Halloween preparations. This year I am going all out and I'm doing it early unlike other years. I am going to be a renaissance female goth vampire. Well... kind of. I just ordered the dress(with petticoat), contacts(cat like with colors), press in fangs, corset (to help with my manly figure), and a wig since I cut my hair off. The only problem is that the dress might not come in in time but it should. The last few things I need to do are either go out and see if I can get a cheap silver+black choker/necklace, black nail polish, and get some stockings. I think that's all I have to do. Also get a few parts of my body waxed because girls don't have hair. :p
On a side note I've been on a diet so I can fit into the dress and look more girly. I've already lost about 2 inches off my waist, a little less than 2 but it's getting close and I've lost a little over 10lbs already. Any ways. I'm hoping there is going to be a really big party to go to with some friends there. I'm kind of scared of going to my Orlando friends because not all of them know I cross dress and I'm going to be decked out in silicone breasts, huge boots, and tons of other girlish stuff. There might be some wondering but oh well.
I'll write more tomorrow. I have to get to bed now because dad and I are going ice skating tomorrow and my schedule is all screwed up right now.
I've started my Halloween preparations. This year I am going all out and I'm doing it early unlike other years. I am going to be a renaissance female goth vampire. Well... kind of. I just ordered the dress(with petticoat), contacts(cat like with colors), press in fangs, corset (to help with my manly figure), and a wig since I cut my hair off. The only problem is that the dress might not come in in time but it should. The last few things I need to do are either go out and see if I can get a cheap silver+black choker/necklace, black nail polish, and get some stockings. I think that's all I have to do. Also get a few parts of my body waxed because girls don't have hair. :p
On a side note I've been on a diet so I can fit into the dress and look more girly. I've already lost about 2 inches off my waist, a little less than 2 but it's getting close and I've lost a little over 10lbs already. Any ways. I'm hoping there is going to be a really big party to go to with some friends there. I'm kind of scared of going to my Orlando friends because not all of them know I cross dress and I'm going to be decked out in silicone breasts, huge boots, and tons of other girlish stuff. There might be some wondering but oh well.
I'll write more tomorrow. I have to get to bed now because dad and I are going ice skating tomorrow and my schedule is all screwed up right now.
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